Thursday, November 29, 2018

dare to love

I was walking back upstairs to where my lovely boyfriend was. When I was walking in I heard him say my name automatically I stopped and listen to him say "well Isabella and I weren't really good friends at first but I had liked her since my freshman year of high school but at the end, I got her and I'm never letting go of her". I walk in and he just looks at me and asks "did you hear everything I just said". I sit down next to him while he puts his arms around me and I answer with "yeah I heard everything and I love you" ."I love you too" he says while looking down at me and kissing my forehead.

We look back the screen that was shining in our face and we keep seeing the same question being asked on the Livestream. "How did you and Isabella get together?" read Zach while looking at me with puppy dog eyes. "We have never told the story?" I asked looking at Zach confused. "Baby we have never said anything that happened," said Zach want me not to say the story. "Maybe we should tell the story about us?" I say looking at Zach. after him thinking about it for a while he finally states "Sure but you tell it".

"Ok I'll tell it so It all started two years ago me and my friends, Venessa and Luara, were all in my room and trust me what happens next might have been the best decision I have ever made.

"Do I really have to go to that party," I ask trying to get them to not make me go. "Too bad you're going", Luara scolded. I finally realized that there was no way they were just going to leave me there so I finally got up from my bed that I haven't left in a month. I go to the bathroom and notice that tear marks on my checks from crying all night and day for the past month. I just want to crawl in a hole and never come out and I think they noticed because I start to feel to bodies behind me hugging my waist. I look towards them and they see that I'm about to cry but then I hear Venessa "I know you miss him but you need to get out there and have fun he was the one who messed up". I know I should get over him but he was one of the only people I really had left since my parents left me and now he left me too. " I know but I just miss him," I say while crying even harder. "I know you miss Jackson but he's the one who cheated on you with some girl in college so go and have fun while your single". "Your right maybe this party can help me get over him," I say while hugging them. "Ok let's get ready," says Laura while holding up a red crop top with some high waisted jeans. We all got ready for the party and  I look in the mirror I could still feel my eyes watering just at the thought of Jackson but I know that we are over so I need to move on.

We all got in the car and headed to the party. We got to the party and started to dance and have fun until I feel someone's eyes on me but I just thought it was my imagination until I look behind me and notice someone looking at me. Laura notices and tells me "have fun and don't think about guys just have fun with your friend." And she right so I grab all of my friends and I notice the guy looking at me still and all I could think about is Jackson and it feels like the day I meet Jackson. Venessa notices me getting sad and she takes me upstairs into an empty room at the end of the hallway.

She looks at me just gives me a big hug telling me "You know he doesn't deserve your tears you deserve to be happy and have fun this is your last year until you have to move". I look at her and know she was right even if it hurts me I have to get over him he was the one who cheated. We went downstairs to the party and see the guy that was looking at me talking to his friend and whispering something to each other while he still has his eyes locked on me.

All of us started to dance and have fun until I start to feel a hand on my waist and I turn around and meet with the guy that was looking at me all night and for a second I forgot about everyone and everything just by looking at his chocolate brown eyes and his perfect smile. What was happing to me he was doing something to me just with his eyes. until he finally spoke up and said: " Hey I'm Zach I know you might not remember me but I remember you". As I was about to ask how he knows me I hear Luara in the corner "who wants to play truth or dare". I really didn't want to but I knew that my friends wouldn't let me get out of it. I see Venessa in the corner of my eye coming towards me and grab my hand away from Zachs. I look back and notice him coming after us. When Vanessa and I were going up the stair I feel someone's hand on my hand and turn me around and again I meet with those brown eyes just then I remembered who he was.

Zach was in my old high school before I moved to Los Angeles. At my old school, he was popular but I wasn't. I would get bullied but I never let it get to me. One day Zach started to bully me and tell me that nobody wants me and that I never deserve to be happy. He would bully me and all of my friends until the point that I had to move. That when I meet Jackson and was happy until everything came crumbling down.

I was snapped back into reality when I hear "ok lovebirds come on let's play truth or dare" I turn and see Vanessa with her little smirk. I look back at Zach seeing him having a little smirk he grabs my hand and says with confidence "come on princess". I just smile and feel the blood rushing to my checks. Just then I feel his hands on my waist and his body against my back. He whispers in my ear "you look cute when you blush".

I know that everyone was waiting for us to play truth or dare so I grab his hand and pull him close and whisper "come on prince charming their waiting for us" you say with a sarcasm in my voice.
Everyone was already in a circle when I walk in with Zach a couple of seconds after me. We all went around the circle until it got to me. "Ok, Isabella it's your turn, truth or dare?" Laura asked me as everyone turns to look at me. I finally answer with confidence looking straight at Luara saying "dare".

Finally, I hear Laura say "I dare you to kiss Zach". That every moment I felt my world crashing down. I turn to see Zach smirking at me knowing that I never back down from a dare. I look at Zach's eyes then at his lips and we both lean in. the second that his lips landed on mine it felt like a thousand fireworks were going off. We both pull away and we both look at each other realizing what just happened. I got up and went downstairs to get and drink and think about what just happened. Until I see my two best friends coming towards me asking questions like " why did you run out?" and "was he really that bad of a kisser?" I just look at them and tell them how he used to be really mean to me and all my old friends and how amazing that kiss was. We kind of relaxed a little bit and walk back upstairs.

While Isabella was downstairs, upstairs all of the guys had noticed that Zach has been wanting to get to know you better. everyone was silenced until Jonah, one of Zach's friends, spoke up and said: " what is up with you?" "Yeah, Zach you had been looking at that girl like she is the one thing that matters and you don't even know her" started a blue-eyed guy. Zach got up with his hands running in his hair violently at the fact that his friends don't understand why he's like that. Until he finally looked straight into their eyes and said: "that girl is not just any girl shes someone that has had my heart since freshman year when I meet her but I blow it." His eyes were now watery and his hands that were in fist are now over his eyes. He just desires to show her how much love he had for her even when all he craved was attention from her.

All of a sudden the girls walk back into the room and everyone was staring at Isabella.  Until Laura stopped and looked at them and asked "what are you guys looking at?" they all turn around and continue the game. Just then its Zachs turn and all of his friends had come up with a plan to get him and Isabella together.

"My dare for Zach is to date Isabella for a whole month and everyone has to think your dating" when I heard Jonah. I look at my friends and they know that this whole month will torcher for me.
With confidence, Zach stood up and said: "Why don't we make this a little interesting?" I meet his eyes with mine and at that moment I felt like we were the only people there until I hear Jonah ask "what do you have in mind Zach?" "Well I was thinking why don't we make this into a little bet?" he said looking right at me. "what's the bet?'" I answer. "well you might not win this bet princess," he said confidently sitting right next to me. I just roll my eyes at his little comment knowing that he was just trying to annoy me. "Just answer the question little kid" Luara told him already annoyed. "Ok so if I can make you fall for me then I get to take you out for real and if I don't I will forever leave you alone and never talk to you again what do you say, princess?"

I look him dead in the eyes and say "sure let's do it". everyone in the room except my friends were so shocked that I had actually agreed to it but my friends know me all too well that they know I don't back down to a dare or bet. I could Zach was not at all surprised but my decision to actually do the bet he just looked at me and grabbed my hand so I was standing up next to him and whispers in my ear "come on prince we have to tell everyone that we are dating". "We are FAKE dating," I say looking at him straight in the eyes. With that, he took my hand and pulled me closer and kissed me and in just that little kiss I could feel all of the fireworks that I felt the first time and I could tell that he felt that too. "Come on lover boy we still have a dare we have to do, "I say smirking at him. I grab his hand and pull him downstairs with me where everyone was dancing and having fun.
We made our way to the center of everyone and started to dance and I notice some girls looking at us and I think I looked like I didn't want to be there when I heard Zach say "let's go somewhere just me and you". "Where are you think" I ask trying still not to fall for him. "i know a place" i was nerves for some reason when all of a sudden he says "trust me okay" "okay I trust you" and with that we got into his car and make our way to somewhere that I had never been to.

We made it to the place when all of sudden I realized where we were. All I could see was the night sky and the city lights. I look back to where Zach was and he kisses my forehead and tells me " it's so beautiful almost as beautiful as you". We sit down and see the view until Zach says "can I ask you something". I look at him confused but I finally answer with "sure why not". "Okay, why did you date Jackson" I was so shocked that he asked, "Wait how do you know about Jackson?" I was almost crying at that moment. He finally answers after a couple of moments " I know what he did because he was my friend until I found out what he did to you so we got into a fight and he ended up with a broken arm." "Did anything happen to you?" I ask looking at him and thinking he actually did that for me. I never noticed that he actually cared about me he was always the one to hurt me why does he care all of a sudden. I was brought back into reality when his voice filled my ears "no much happened to me just hurt my hand from betting him up but I would do it over and over again for you". I looked into his brown eyes thinking why until I finally saw what every girl saw in him. "Why would you do it for me?" I ask concerned about his answer.

"do you really want to know why I fought with Jackson," he asks while I look into his beautiful brown eyes. "I really want to know why me" I took his hands in mine and interlock them. He tells me while looking at our hand interlocked  together "Ok so do you remember when we used to go to the same school our freshman year?" I did remember all of the things he would do just to get me mad. "Yeah what about it all I remember is you always bullying me and my friends," I say trying to see what he wanted to say to me but nothing came to mind until he said, "I would bully you and make you mad just so you would pay attention to me". " Why did you want my attention when you had every girl's attention in the whole school?" I look at him still so confused about why. "The thing was I never wanted any other girl it was always you that I wanted but you never wanted me," he says while still looking at me but now he's closer to me to the point why we could feel each other breaths. "Why me?" I asked nervously looking down and playing with my finger while they are still interlocked with his. "You were the girl with that laugh and cute giggly the one that didn't care about what people thought the girl who had my heart and you still do you are the girl that has that cute thing where when your nerves you play with your fingers and look down your that girl that even with a little smile makes me want you" he looks down at me and kisses my forehead and says "your the girl of my dreams and always will be". We stayed there till morning.

The next morning we woke with the sunrise. We got up and he took my hand to bring me to him. "What are you doing," I ask while giggling. He looks at me with a genuine smile "I just wanted to see this beauty up close". "You want to see it even closer," I say while getting close enough to feel the warmth from his breath and if we even move a little we could kiss. "Maybe but we have to go back your friends are probably looking for you," he says while he grabs my hand and pulls me into the car.
We talked about life until we go to my house. When I was going to leave the car he said: "you I meet every word that I said to you yesterday". "I know you did I just don't know Zach," I say while looking down playing with my fingers. He looks at me tells me "Don't worry I know one day I would be able to call you mine but for now we are just fake dating". "Yeah, fake dating," I say looking at him but feeling my eyes getting watery and looking down. I get out of the car and get inside still thinking do I really like him or is this all just all of the romance in the air.

It's been 2 weeks since I meet Zach and we made that bet. That bet was what had made my life full and empty at the same time. It made me think about what it would be like if I actually date Zach and all of these feelings haven't gone away they had actually grown and a lot. I could honestly say that I had fallen for Zach but I just can't have my heart broken again.

I woke up one morning and get ready for the first day of school. I was sitting on the ground putting on makeup in my room when I feel someone's eyes on me. I turn around and noticed Zach there "what are you doing".  He looks at me another second and just laughs a little and comes over to me and takes away the brush I had in my hand. I look at him confused and ask " why did you take it away from me? I need to do my makeup Zach please give it back". He looks at me and just crosses his arms while towering over my head until he finally says "I like you better without makeup". " That's sweet Zach, "I say standing up and holding his hand. "Come on take that off and we could go to school," he says while he looks down at me. I take off all of the makeup I had on and went to school.

When we got to school everything was normal until I feel peoples eyes all over me and Zach. I turn to look at Zach and he looks at me with a reassuring look. We walk to my locker and I put my stuff into my locker with Zach standing next to me hugging me from behind and kissing my cheek. I close my locker and turn around to meet face to face with Zach. "Hey what you doing, "I say all giggly. "Nothing just making sure no guy talks to you," he says getting closer to me and putting his forehead on mine, looking into my eyes and kissing me. " I'll see you after class," he says before he leaves to his class.

I walk into class and see everyone looking at me but I just ignore it and sit in the back of the class. It was halfway thru the class when all of a sudden I see Jackson walk thru the door and sits down right next to me. The teacher was talking about what we were doing for the rest of the year when I start to feel someone's hand on my leg. I know exactly who it was so I just grab his hand and move it. "Come on you know you love me and you can never get over me," he tells me while he looks at me with those eyes that I used to love or thought I loved.

The rest of that class went by and it was time to leave and I could go meet up with Zach. I walk out of class and see Zach by my locker with a girl with blond hair and blues eyes. I see her arm trying to grab his hand. I could feel the tears falling down my cheek until I see Zach look at me and realized what it looked like to me and ran to me. "Cangalaisions Zach you won the bet," I say while I full on crying now. I turn around run home hearing Zach screaming my name while running after me.
I got home and opened the door and slid down the door crying feeling all of the emotions from when Jackson cheated on me. Just thinking why am I never good enough? Why does nobody want me? Why do people leave me so much? Just then I hear a knock on the door. I knew that it was Zach and I didn't want to open it until I realized that he would stay there until I opened the door. So I got up and opened the door and still feeling tears running down my face, meeting eyes with the one that I used to love.

"Jackson what are you doing here," I say still scared about what he will do. " I just came to see how you are because I heard about Zach" when he told me that I look down not knowing what to say. "Why don't you forget about him and go out with me again," he says picking up my chin so I could look at him in the eyes. He pulls me closer to him and kisses me and I don't feel anything like I used to, like I feel when I kiss Zach. We pull apart and I look at him and realize that Zach is the one and will always be and now I know for sure. "Thank you so much you showed me who I really love," I say smiling. "Who do you love?" I turn around and realized that Zach was standing there the whole time. He walks towards me and I look down knowing that now was the point where I had to tell him.
"Do you love him?" when Zach asked that I look up at him and tell him "I only love one person". "Who do you love isabella?" Jackson asked still wanting to know who I love. "I love you Zach" I look down and feel Zach's touch on my chin and pull my head up to meet his eyes and I know I made the right choice just by looking into his brown eyes and sweet smile. He looks down at me and kisses me with passion.

We were interrupted by Jackson "whatever I never really liked you I just wanted your money". Zach just turns to him and says "good because I'm never letting go of her ever". With that Jackson left and Zach looks back down at me and we just look at each other until I just give him a quick kiss. That was the best day.

Back to the present, Zach and I were done answering the questions on the live stream and ended it. We were laying down on the bed when he gets a text from someone and tells me to get ready. I get up and just put on a cute skirt and crop top with some high heel boots. I was going to go do my makeup so I go into the room and look where I usually keep my makeup but it wasn't there anymore. I look around but couldn't find it so I asked Zach "hey babe have you seen my makeup". "Yeah I hid it I don't like when you have makeup on you look more beautiful without it" when he told me that it reminded me of when he did that before we dated. "Aww babe I love you, "I say while I kiss him." I love you too now let's go I have a surprise for you.

We got into the car and made our way to where we were going. I just kept asking "where are we going" but he would always answer with "it's a surprise". Just then he told me to put on a blind foil that he gave me. I put it on and after 5 minutes we made it. He helped me down from the car and took my hand and we made our way somewhere until he told me I could finally see what the surprise was.
When I took off the blindfold all I see was a little picnic where he first told me how he felt about me and I was getting so emotional. Zach made his way behind me and hugged me. "What do think," he says while hugging me and kissing my head. "I love it thank you" You hug him back. We sit down and talk while watching the sunset. We both stayed there until the sun was almost down and we stand up to see the city light flashing thru the city.

"Its so beautiful baby," I tell Zach but I get no answer so I turn around and see Zach down on one knee. "Isabella, I know that I had loved you since I saw you on the first day of high school and I know that moment that one day I would be able you call ou my wife and I hope that you say says so what do you say Isabella will you marry me?" "Yes," he puts the ring on my finger and his him. All of the fireworks and butterfly in my stomach are still there every time I kiss him.

I stand corrected this is the best day of my life.


Monday, November 26, 2018

my memory of the reading

what I remember of the read was that M. myrail was a bishop that helps people even when people don't want him to. he always helps the poor even if he is left with nothing he always wants to help any way he can. we just got introduced to john Valan shon. Valanshon is a man that was poor and was forced to steal just to eat and get food for himself and family. For stealing bread, he went to jail for 5 years but since he was trying to escape then he had to stay in jail for 15years. He got out and barely had money and everywhere he went to get shelter they denied him because they thought he as bad until he got to the bishops house and he gave him a bed and food for him to eat.

Wednesday, November 21, 2018

Les Mis and The French Revolution

A connection of Les Mis and the revolution is when they are talking about how M. Myriel became bishop of D---. The person that made him a bishop was Napoleon. Napoleon was the last person that was involved in the revolution. Napoleon was still not banished to the island that they sent him to at the end of the revolution so if this was historical correct that would mean that Napoleon would have to be on the island and not on the streets of the town.

Sunday, November 18, 2018

Les Mis Part 1 Summary

In Les Mis, I have learned that the bishop has many names how they call him like M. Myriel or  Monseigneur Bienvenu. He is what part 1 is all about because the author wants us to know who he is and is probably an important person in this story. Monseigneur Bienvenu was a Bishop of D---- who was about the age of 75 years old. Everyone in the town knows that he was an elegant, graceful, intelligent person. Who is always with this sister and his severe, Mademoiselle Baptistine
and Madame Magloire.

M. Myriel has always been the type of person to trust that everything will be fine. He never has locks on his doors because he wants people to know that he's there to help and he wants people to come into his home because its there home too. He believes everyone is good even when it doesn't seem like it. Like when he went to a town where they were stealing and everyone told him to not go but he had to. When he was over at the other town they didn't steal from him they actually gave him all of the treasures they had. All of the things that he has done have been good like when he gets money for himself he gives it all away to the poor, to the hospitals, to women, to schools, to everyone that needs it.

Wednesday, November 7, 2018

What’s this all about

les mis is a story about how the bishop M. Myriel has been through since the French Revolution. He is a kind gentleman that gives to the poor and barely leaves for him self. The only people that Is always with him is his lovely sister and his servent.

Monday, November 5, 2018

What a character

In Les Misérables, Victor Hugo goes to great lengths to describe the character of M. Myriel.  He uses both direct and indirect characterization to help the reader get to know M. Myriel.  Here are some examples. When Víctor Hugo was talking about how old M.Myriel is which he’s 75 years old he directly stayed it.

Thursday, November 1, 2018

Les Misérables

M. Myriel was always the one that would give to the poor, sick and afflicted before he used the money on himself. when he had money he would go visit the poor but when he didn't have money to give he would visit the rich. he would always eat the same thing that he ate for breakfast but rarely more than boiled vegetable or bread warmed in oil, but he did have special meals like fish from the lake or some. most of the time he would be alone.

Journal 4/28/20

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